One of my girlfriend's friend's status messages on Facebook today was "child injuries- fall/get hurt, lay/sit there for a second, maybe yell out a little, get up, assess the damage, resume playing. :)"
That made me start thinking of the similarities of a child getting hurt and an adult making a mistake.
A child gets hurt. What kind of child he/she is determines how they respond. Sometimes it may not really even hurt, but perhaps the child knows they can get extra attention by using the fall or whatever happened, so they will cry and cry about it to get attention.
Some adults use their mistakes this way too. "My life is ruined! I'm helpless! Nobody else has it this hard!" Now, that sounds harsh, perhaps, but just as I pity the child even if they weren't hurt that bad, so I pity the adult who made the mistake, and my concern would be with helping them. Not rather or not they're over reacting.
Or, the child may just get up and resume playing since they're not really hurt. Often this is what we need to do when we make mistakes. Just get up and try to move on without making the same mistake again.
Or, sometimes the child really is hurt badly, and they will cry and seek shelter and comfort in the arms of their mother or whoever constantly loves and takes care of them. Finally, being comforted and feeling better, they will go back to playing, or perhaps just stay there and sleep/rest in their safe haven.
Sometimes we really do mess up bad. But always when we do, we can find shelter and comfort in the One Who always loves us and takes care of us.
So, when we make a mistake and we fall or get hurt, we may lie there a while. We may even need to cry out for help. But it's important that we always "get up [move on], assess the damage [figure out what we did wrong and how to set it right and/or deal with the consequences], and resume playing [get back into doing whatever we're supposed to be doing]."
Perhaps kindof a lame post, but the short form would be just me seeing that status and thinking basically that last paragraph -- that we should handle a lot of things we face as adults a lot more like a child handles getting hurt.
2010-04-27
2010-04-09
New Beginnings
So, I'm thinking of starting up a blog again. But I'm not really sure if I will or not. I hope that I will, and that it will inspire people. That it will improve my abilities to communicate. That it will give people insight into who I am, and also who they are. But along with all of that, I also hope that it will not use too much of my time. And I'm not sure that I can really do all of the first things I mentioned and that last part. But anyway. Yay new beginnings!
2009-06-13
Update / Relationships 2
Well, I've had almost no time for reading, and when I have read a bit, I've started reading Captivating by John Eldredge. I've only read the first 1 1/2 chapters so far, but can already recommend it. (For one thing, Ma said it was good.)
So, I just decided to post this small excerpt from my brother Brian's email. He was talking a bit about girls, and how he hasn't found anyone yet, and then he said this:
The greatness of the matter though, is that I don't have to worry
about it. I am just discussing this because it hit me hard, and
fascinated me so much, that I couldn't help but write about it to you.
God will bring a girl to me. And she will be the perfect girl for me.
I don't have to look, because God isn't looking. God already knows
who she is, and where she is. But before He will bring us together,
He must first make us into who we each should be. I learned that way
of thinking from Ma just this morning, BTW. She said "God is not so
interested in helping us /find/ the right person as He is in /making/
us the right person." Or I also thought of it this way, if I am
ever feeling lonely and want God to hurry up, I should turn to Him
more, knowing that I must not be good enough yet for the person He has
prepared for me, or He would have brought us together.
Anyway, I just thought that was well said, and kindof went along with what I said last time about trusting God's timing, and not worrying about it.
Me and Brian are extremely close, and think very much alike. Note that by saying, "God will bring a girl to me." he is not AT ALL advocating being a passive bum and waiting for things to magically happen, but rather that our concern is not finding a partner, but becoming the partner God wants us to be one day.
Feel free to share any thoughts, concerns, questions, and criticisms. I like all four.
So, I just decided to post this small excerpt from my brother Brian's email. He was talking a bit about girls, and how he hasn't found anyone yet, and then he said this:
The greatness of the matter though, is that I don't have to worry
about it. I am just discussing this because it hit me hard, and
fascinated me so much, that I couldn't help but write about it to you.
God will bring a girl to me. And she will be the perfect girl for me.
I don't have to look, because God isn't looking. God already knows
who she is, and where she is. But before He will bring us together,
He must first make us into who we each should be. I learned that way
of thinking from Ma just this morning, BTW. She said "God is not so
interested in helping us /find/ the right person as He is in /making/
us the right person." Or I also thought of it this way, if I am
ever feeling lonely and want God to hurry up, I should turn to Him
more, knowing that I must not be good enough yet for the person He has
prepared for me, or He would have brought us together.
Anyway, I just thought that was well said, and kindof went along with what I said last time about trusting God's timing, and not worrying about it.
Me and Brian are extremely close, and think very much alike. Note that by saying, "God will bring a girl to me." he is not AT ALL advocating being a passive bum and waiting for things to magically happen, but rather that our concern is not finding a partner, but becoming the partner God wants us to be one day.
Feel free to share any thoughts, concerns, questions, and criticisms. I like all four.
2009-05-23
Relationships?
"Every relationship for a Christian is an opportunity to love another person like God has loved us. To lay down our desires and do what's in his or her best interest. To care for him or her even when there's nothing in it for us. To want that person's purity and holiness because it pleases God and protects him or her." - Joshua Harris.
I just started reading I Kissed Dating Goodbye by Joshua Harris. So far, it's all stuff that I was taught by my parents growing up and things that I have already been convicted of. I wanted to read it though, because I might want to recommend it to some people, and I don't like recommending books I haven't read. (Though, I would recommend books from certain authors such as Randy Alcorn and John Eldredge, even if I haven't read all of their books.)
To all of my dear readers, don't worry if you're not currently in any relationship.
"Trust in the LORD with all your heart And do not lean on your own understanding." -Proverbs 3:5
I know that for at least one of you, by your own understanding/knowledge, you may feel like time is running out and that if you don't find someone soon, you never will. But don't be concerned about that. God does have it all planned out for you, and His way is best. He is the creator and owner of time. Try to focus on drawing closer to Him. And don't worry about guys. Let Him be the one to find one for you. Remember. "A woman's heart should be so lost in God that a man needs to seek Him in order to find her." Trust God my dear friend. If it seems like no man is seeking God enough to find you, then still, do not worry. It is in God's hands, and be thankful for His protection from those who might not draw you closer to Him.
Trust in the LORD and do good;
Dwell in the land and cultivate faithfulness.
Delight yourself in the LORD;
And He will give you the desires of your heart.
Commit your way to the LORD,
Trust also in Him, and He will do it.
He will bring forth your righteousness as the light
And your judgment as the noonday.
Rest in the LORD and wait patiently for Him;
Do not fret because of him who prospers in his way,
Because of the man who carries out wicked schemes.
Cease from anger and forsake wrath;
Do not fret; it leads only to evildoing.
For evildoers will be cut off,
But those who wait for the LORD, they will inherit the land.
(Psalm 37:3-8)
To those of you who are in relationships, I would give similar advice -- Put God above the relationship, and put LOVE above emotions and feelings.
And what do I mean by that? I mean that you should be more concerned about honoring and pleasing God than about keeping the relationship. If you know the relationship is not honoring and pleasing to God, then end it, or if possible, just end the part that is not pleasing to God.
And what do I mean by putting Love above emotions and feelings? I mean that Love IS NOT an emotion or feeling. I would contend that you can love someone even while your emotions and feelings may be telling you to punch them in the face. Love is about wanting the very best for the other person, and living for their good. And that includes, as Joshua Harris said very well in the beginning quote, "[wanting] that person's purity and holiness because it pleases God and protects him or her."
I intend to post more on this topic in the near future -- perhaps a section aimed at guys, and one aimed at girls. And please, feel free to comment with corrections, criticisms, questions, or whatever.
May God be glorified.
I just started reading I Kissed Dating Goodbye by Joshua Harris. So far, it's all stuff that I was taught by my parents growing up and things that I have already been convicted of. I wanted to read it though, because I might want to recommend it to some people, and I don't like recommending books I haven't read. (Though, I would recommend books from certain authors such as Randy Alcorn and John Eldredge, even if I haven't read all of their books.)
To all of my dear readers, don't worry if you're not currently in any relationship.
"Trust in the LORD with all your heart And do not lean on your own understanding." -Proverbs 3:5
I know that for at least one of you, by your own understanding/knowledge, you may feel like time is running out and that if you don't find someone soon, you never will. But don't be concerned about that. God does have it all planned out for you, and His way is best. He is the creator and owner of time. Try to focus on drawing closer to Him. And don't worry about guys. Let Him be the one to find one for you. Remember. "A woman's heart should be so lost in God that a man needs to seek Him in order to find her." Trust God my dear friend. If it seems like no man is seeking God enough to find you, then still, do not worry. It is in God's hands, and be thankful for His protection from those who might not draw you closer to Him.
Trust in the LORD and do good;
Dwell in the land and cultivate faithfulness.
Delight yourself in the LORD;
And He will give you the desires of your heart.
Commit your way to the LORD,
Trust also in Him, and He will do it.
He will bring forth your righteousness as the light
And your judgment as the noonday.
Rest in the LORD and wait patiently for Him;
Do not fret because of him who prospers in his way,
Because of the man who carries out wicked schemes.
Cease from anger and forsake wrath;
Do not fret; it leads only to evildoing.
For evildoers will be cut off,
But those who wait for the LORD, they will inherit the land.
(Psalm 37:3-8)
To those of you who are in relationships, I would give similar advice -- Put God above the relationship, and put LOVE above emotions and feelings.
And what do I mean by that? I mean that you should be more concerned about honoring and pleasing God than about keeping the relationship. If you know the relationship is not honoring and pleasing to God, then end it, or if possible, just end the part that is not pleasing to God.
And what do I mean by putting Love above emotions and feelings? I mean that Love IS NOT an emotion or feeling. I would contend that you can love someone even while your emotions and feelings may be telling you to punch them in the face. Love is about wanting the very best for the other person, and living for their good. And that includes, as Joshua Harris said very well in the beginning quote, "[wanting] that person's purity and holiness because it pleases God and protects him or her."
I intend to post more on this topic in the near future -- perhaps a section aimed at guys, and one aimed at girls. And please, feel free to comment with corrections, criticisms, questions, or whatever.
May God be glorified.
2009-03-07
Mr Ngambi
Speaking yesterday of being blessed with a job, I am reminded of Mr. Ngambi in Zambia. We hired him to help take care of our garden and yard as a way to help him out. Never have I seen a better employee. He was on time or else early EVERY day. He never left early, but instead, often left late. His goal was not to make money, but to be the very best groundskeeper he could be — and he was. And mind you, it's not that he didn't need the money! He lives in a crouded compound in a very small house. I'm actually not even sure how many children he had, but at least 3. I'm thinking 6, but I need to confirm that with my brother.
I'll never forget one day when he was late. He got there slightly later than his usual (don't remember how late, but it wasn't much), and was so apologetic. Turns out he was in incredible pain with a toothache, and was late because he had been to the dentist. Even with the toothache, he intended to work, but we gave him some pain killer and let him go home. And you know, for something as little as that — some painkiller and a day off, he was forever grateful to us and thankful to God for a 'good employer'.
He is an elder in one of the churches in Kafue, and on some day of the week he had to be at a meeting there. It was totally fine with us for him to take off for that, but rather than just taking the time off, he insisted on working during lunch break on those days to make up for the hour or two that he was in the meeting.
Anyway, I wrote all that mostly just to say, he was a VERY good employee and is a very hard worker. We moved far away though, and could not continue hiring him. Well, some months ago, my family got to visit him and his family, and found that he is was security guard for a teacher training college. That's a low paying, quite demanding job in Zambia. I don't know about him, but many of them work 12 hour shifts. Well, when they visited him, he had been working for the teacher training college for 6 months. They paid him the first month, but for the past 5 months he hadn't been paid! Can you imagine? Working at your only job for 5 months without getting paid! Now, here, that would be foolish. If someone doesn't pay you, you quit the job. Otherwise it just encourages them to take advantage of you. That may be the case in Zambia also, but what else can he do? There are no other jobs available for him, so to leave would just be to leave his hope for them to eventually pay him.
But was he depressed by that? No. Instead, he was thankful to God for getting to see us. He was praising God aloud to hear that one of our students was accepted into Liberty University. He was thankful to Pa for being a faithful employee back when he was working for us.
How was he even surviving? I don't know. But what he knows is that GOD is the one who provides for us, and that all that is required of us is "to act justly and to love mercy and to walk humbly with [our] God." (Micah 6:8). God takes care of the rest.
So, I'm very blessed to have my current job.
I'll never forget one day when he was late. He got there slightly later than his usual (don't remember how late, but it wasn't much), and was so apologetic. Turns out he was in incredible pain with a toothache, and was late because he had been to the dentist. Even with the toothache, he intended to work, but we gave him some pain killer and let him go home. And you know, for something as little as that — some painkiller and a day off, he was forever grateful to us and thankful to God for a 'good employer'.
He is an elder in one of the churches in Kafue, and on some day of the week he had to be at a meeting there. It was totally fine with us for him to take off for that, but rather than just taking the time off, he insisted on working during lunch break on those days to make up for the hour or two that he was in the meeting.
Anyway, I wrote all that mostly just to say, he was a VERY good employee and is a very hard worker. We moved far away though, and could not continue hiring him. Well, some months ago, my family got to visit him and his family, and found that he is was security guard for a teacher training college. That's a low paying, quite demanding job in Zambia. I don't know about him, but many of them work 12 hour shifts. Well, when they visited him, he had been working for the teacher training college for 6 months. They paid him the first month, but for the past 5 months he hadn't been paid! Can you imagine? Working at your only job for 5 months without getting paid! Now, here, that would be foolish. If someone doesn't pay you, you quit the job. Otherwise it just encourages them to take advantage of you. That may be the case in Zambia also, but what else can he do? There are no other jobs available for him, so to leave would just be to leave his hope for them to eventually pay him.
But was he depressed by that? No. Instead, he was thankful to God for getting to see us. He was praising God aloud to hear that one of our students was accepted into Liberty University. He was thankful to Pa for being a faithful employee back when he was working for us.
How was he even surviving? I don't know. But what he knows is that GOD is the one who provides for us, and that all that is required of us is "to act justly and to love mercy and to walk humbly with [our] God." (Micah 6:8). God takes care of the rest.
So, I'm very blessed to have my current job.
2009-03-06
March 6th
Today was a day full of blessings. I woke up earlier than usual, feeling very refreshed and ready for the day.
In my devotions, I was reading about the old testament sacrifices. That's not usually the most exciting topic, but what is exciting is that Jesus fulfilled ALL of that through His ultimate sacrifice. He made us clean, innocent, and beautiful to the Father. How amazing is that? That we, filthy rags as we are, can be something beautiful, something pleasing to the Lord and King of the whole universe!
I actually ate breakfast today — blueberry bagels and cream cheese. They were delicious.
Work went very well. Because I actually got up at a reasonable time, I was able to get in more than my usual number of hours and still have some free time during daylight hours. I am so blessed to have a good job. It's a dream job really — I choose my own hours, don't have to leave home, get paid for my time spent learning new things, and have two great friends, one of whom is my brother, as my co-worker and boss.
This afternoon, between projects in work, I got a short text message from Ma informing me that she now has a phone! Her very first cellphone. :) It's always great to hear from home, and it's great that she now has a phone so I can send text messages to her directly and possibly even call her sometime. I've been very blessed with the best mom I can imagine.
I also got to chat for some time with a very dear friend. God has blessed me abundantly with friends. Even now, when I hardly ever see anyone in real life besides my brother and co-worker, God has given me friends to communicate and share with over the Internet, and uses them to encourage me, to give me courage, to remind me of the things in life which are truly important.
I was also blessed with lovely weather today. The temperature was so comfortable, and the sky cloudy, so that it felt almost like rain — with that freshness and cleanness in the air. I went for a bike ride and took a few pictures on the way back. Many people are not healthy enough to ride bikes. Many have never had the privilege to learn to ride bikes. Many, including my own brothers living in Zambia do not have bikes to ride. I've been blessed with a good bike, good health, and a camera.
This evening I re-heated the food I made last night — chicken, potatoes, carrots, celery, and onion baked together. I've been so blessed with plenty of healthy food, a clean, indoor kitchen, and a brother who can enjoy the meal also.
Those are just a few of the countless blessings God is constantly pouring out on me. The challenge to me now is to appreciate His blessings, and to use them to bless others.
In my devotions, I was reading about the old testament sacrifices. That's not usually the most exciting topic, but what is exciting is that Jesus fulfilled ALL of that through His ultimate sacrifice. He made us clean, innocent, and beautiful to the Father. How amazing is that? That we, filthy rags as we are, can be something beautiful, something pleasing to the Lord and King of the whole universe!
I actually ate breakfast today — blueberry bagels and cream cheese. They were delicious.
Work went very well. Because I actually got up at a reasonable time, I was able to get in more than my usual number of hours and still have some free time during daylight hours. I am so blessed to have a good job. It's a dream job really — I choose my own hours, don't have to leave home, get paid for my time spent learning new things, and have two great friends, one of whom is my brother, as my co-worker and boss.
This afternoon, between projects in work, I got a short text message from Ma informing me that she now has a phone! Her very first cellphone. :) It's always great to hear from home, and it's great that she now has a phone so I can send text messages to her directly and possibly even call her sometime. I've been very blessed with the best mom I can imagine.
I also got to chat for some time with a very dear friend. God has blessed me abundantly with friends. Even now, when I hardly ever see anyone in real life besides my brother and co-worker, God has given me friends to communicate and share with over the Internet, and uses them to encourage me, to give me courage, to remind me of the things in life which are truly important.
I was also blessed with lovely weather today. The temperature was so comfortable, and the sky cloudy, so that it felt almost like rain — with that freshness and cleanness in the air. I went for a bike ride and took a few pictures on the way back. Many people are not healthy enough to ride bikes. Many have never had the privilege to learn to ride bikes. Many, including my own brothers living in Zambia do not have bikes to ride. I've been blessed with a good bike, good health, and a camera.
This evening I re-heated the food I made last night — chicken, potatoes, carrots, celery, and onion baked together. I've been so blessed with plenty of healthy food, a clean, indoor kitchen, and a brother who can enjoy the meal also.
Those are just a few of the countless blessings God is constantly pouring out on me. The challenge to me now is to appreciate His blessings, and to use them to bless others.
2009-03-04
The Journey
I know. It's been so long since I posted anything, and even longer since I actually wrote something original, I can't really expect to have many (any?) followers. But even if I only write a fraction of what I'm thinking, just sitting here to write and thinking can be very beneficial I think.
Just a couple days ago, a friend of mine pointed me to this blog: http://kissesfromkatie.blogspot.com
I can't even explain how much of a blessing reading this blog has been. It is written by a girl in Uganda who is working with the people there to provide a home, education, and love for the children there. It's been so encouraging and inspiring to read, because so much of it reminds me of times and experiences in Zambia. My children and siblings at the orphanage, my life-long friends at church and at our school. It all seems real again when reading Katie's blog, and it inspires me to work even harder to support the work my family and others are doing in Africa, as well as working to go back myself one day.
I almost wrote something like, "I think I'll be posting here a bit more often now." or something like that, but unfortunately, I've had that thought when writing just about every single post on here, so I don't trust it.
Just a couple days ago, a friend of mine pointed me to this blog: http://kissesfromkatie.blogspot.com
I can't even explain how much of a blessing reading this blog has been. It is written by a girl in Uganda who is working with the people there to provide a home, education, and love for the children there. It's been so encouraging and inspiring to read, because so much of it reminds me of times and experiences in Zambia. My children and siblings at the orphanage, my life-long friends at church and at our school. It all seems real again when reading Katie's blog, and it inspires me to work even harder to support the work my family and others are doing in Africa, as well as working to go back myself one day.
I almost wrote something like, "I think I'll be posting here a bit more often now." or something like that, but unfortunately, I've had that thought when writing just about every single post on here, so I don't trust it.
2008-12-05
Louie Giglio — How Great is our God
This sermon has helped me tremendously. I'd encourage anyone who has the time or is struggling or needs assurance of Gods love and care to listen to it.
2008-10-31
"Dare To Tell" survey from myspacebulletins.com
What type of day are you having?
An exceptionally good day, simply because of my attitude.
Was there anyone who "made your day"?
No, not really this specific day. Though, everyone I talked to helped make it better.
Are you liking how you look today?
I haven't even noticed.
Do you have anyone crushing on you?
No.
Have you ever eaten a bug?
Sure. Lots of them. My favorite is a certain type of termite called Inswa. Taste kindof like popcorn when cooked right.
Are you vegeterian?
No.
When was the last time you kissed someone?
Mouth, never. Cheek or forehead, I don't know, but quite a long time ago.
Have you ever had something stuck between your teeth, but no one decided to tell you?
Psht. I have no idea.
Are you a mother or a father?
No.
When was your last paycheck?
Well, I last got paid some weeks ago.
How many pets do you have?
Zero.
What kind of toothpaste do you use?
Colgate, varying kinds. Hardly pay attention actually.
Are you closer to being rich or poor?
Far from either the way I think. I'm not starving to death, but don't have lots of money to spare either.
Do you sleep with a stuffed animal?
No. But sometimes I do.
What was the last gift someone gave you?
Hmm... An adaptor for my monitor/computer if I remember correctly.
Do you appreciate that person?
Yes, I appreciate Brendan.
Are you on any type of drugs?
No.
Are you in love?
No.
Have you ever been in love?
No, not the way I define the term anyway.
Do you even believe in love?
Definitely!
How many things are you really thinking about right now?
Pretty much only this survey right now actually, because my mind is very tired.
Did you talk to anyone you didn't like today?
No.
Do you like picnics?
If they're with nice people, yes. But the people are what make them so nice.
Have you finished school yet?
Meh. I hope to get some college degree sooner or later, so no.
What is/was your worst subject?
Eh. English maybe? But I liked pretty much all subjects.
What's your father's middle name?
Emmett
Are you American?
Yes.
...fizzled out and didn't complete the survey because I'm so sleepy. Didn't particularly feel like answering the rest of them anyway. :-p
I love these surveys though, so if anyone finds one on myspacebulletins.com or anywhere, I'll be glad to answer all the questions honestly to the best of my abilities -- just send me the survey or a link and give me some time.
An exceptionally good day, simply because of my attitude.
Was there anyone who "made your day"?
No, not really this specific day. Though, everyone I talked to helped make it better.
Are you liking how you look today?
I haven't even noticed.
Do you have anyone crushing on you?
No.
Have you ever eaten a bug?
Sure. Lots of them. My favorite is a certain type of termite called Inswa. Taste kindof like popcorn when cooked right.
Are you vegeterian?
No.
When was the last time you kissed someone?
Mouth, never. Cheek or forehead, I don't know, but quite a long time ago.
Have you ever had something stuck between your teeth, but no one decided to tell you?
Psht. I have no idea.
Are you a mother or a father?
No.
When was your last paycheck?
Well, I last got paid some weeks ago.
How many pets do you have?
Zero.
What kind of toothpaste do you use?
Colgate, varying kinds. Hardly pay attention actually.
Are you closer to being rich or poor?
Far from either the way I think. I'm not starving to death, but don't have lots of money to spare either.
Do you sleep with a stuffed animal?
No. But sometimes I do.
What was the last gift someone gave you?
Hmm... An adaptor for my monitor/computer if I remember correctly.
Do you appreciate that person?
Yes, I appreciate Brendan.
Are you on any type of drugs?
No.
Are you in love?
No.
Have you ever been in love?
No, not the way I define the term anyway.
Do you even believe in love?
Definitely!
How many things are you really thinking about right now?
Pretty much only this survey right now actually, because my mind is very tired.
Did you talk to anyone you didn't like today?
No.
Do you like picnics?
If they're with nice people, yes. But the people are what make them so nice.
Have you finished school yet?
Meh. I hope to get some college degree sooner or later, so no.
What is/was your worst subject?
Eh. English maybe? But I liked pretty much all subjects.
What's your father's middle name?
Emmett
Are you American?
Yes.
...fizzled out and didn't complete the survey because I'm so sleepy. Didn't particularly feel like answering the rest of them anyway. :-p
I love these surveys though, so if anyone finds one on myspacebulletins.com or anywhere, I'll be glad to answer all the questions honestly to the best of my abilities -- just send me the survey or a link and give me some time.
2008-10-24
Casting Crowns
Started today off feeling kinda down, and ended up just watching some youtube videos and stuff, wasting time. Then started writing my dear mother, and trying to encourage her. Was reminded of 'Praise You in this Storm' by Casting Crowns, and listened to that quite loud, paying close attention to all the words. It made me cry, and helped a lot. Now I'm listening to Lifesong by them, and it voices my current prayer very well.
2008-10-20
A Sacrifice of Praise
Here's an actually useful blog:
http://asacrificeofpraise.wordpress.com/
Just found it today as a link of "Possibly related posts" on a Skillet blog post. Haven't read a huge amount, but just the 'about me', 'what's the point' and 'the story of God’s goodness' posts made me like, "Wow. This person is actually using her blog for something important."
http://asacrificeofpraise.wordpress.com/
Just found it today as a link of "Possibly related posts" on a Skillet blog post. Haven't read a huge amount, but just the 'about me', 'what's the point' and 'the story of God’s goodness' posts made me like, "Wow. This person is actually using her blog for something important."
2008-10-18
From the Inside Out
Was feeling down, and this song cheered me up. :D I love it. From the Inside Out, by Hillsong United.
A thousand times I've failed
Still your mercy remains
And should I stumble again
Still I'm caught in your grace
Everlasting, Your light will shine when all else fades
Never ending, Your glory goes beyond all fame
In my heart, in my soul, Lord I give you control
Consume me from the inside out Lord
Let justice and praise become my embrace
To love You from the inside out
Your will above all else, my purpose remains
The art of losing myself in bringing you praise
Everlasting, Your light will shine when all else fades
Never ending, Your glory goes beyond all fame
In my heart, in my soul, Lord I give you control
Consume me from the inside out Lord
Let justice and praise become my embrace
To love You from the inside out
Chorus 2x
Everlasting, Your light will shine when all else fades
Never ending, Your glory goes beyond all fame
And the cry of my heart is to bring You praise
From the inside out Lord, my soul cries out
A thousand times I've failed
Still your mercy remains
And should I stumble again
Still I'm caught in your grace
Everlasting, Your light will shine when all else fades
Never ending, Your glory goes beyond all fame
In my heart, in my soul, Lord I give you control
Consume me from the inside out Lord
Let justice and praise become my embrace
To love You from the inside out
Your will above all else, my purpose remains
The art of losing myself in bringing you praise
Everlasting, Your light will shine when all else fades
Never ending, Your glory goes beyond all fame
In my heart, in my soul, Lord I give you control
Consume me from the inside out Lord
Let justice and praise become my embrace
To love You from the inside out
Chorus 2x
Everlasting, Your light will shine when all else fades
Never ending, Your glory goes beyond all fame
And the cry of my heart is to bring You praise
From the inside out Lord, my soul cries out
2008-10-07
...
This blog seems to be dead...
Perhaps I will post here sometime when I feel like writing to nobody and everybody. *shrug* It was fun, but I guess I don't really have time for it. If I'm going to write, I usually want to write friends, and by the time I finish just a single email, my free time is usually gone.
Perhaps I will post here sometime when I feel like writing to nobody and everybody. *shrug* It was fun, but I guess I don't really have time for it. If I'm going to write, I usually want to write friends, and by the time I finish just a single email, my free time is usually gone.
2008-08-18
Thank you God.
It seemed that I was too busy and kept getting further and further behind on communicating with anyone, simply because I didn't have time to write people. But now I realize I've actually been wasting a lot of time. I prayed that God would use this trip to Liberty to help me, but I could not have imagined just how much God has helped me by this trip!
I was getting very lonely, longing for someone to share everything with, someone to help build me up and encourage me in my walk with God. I made a constant effort to pray and read God's word each morning, but was constantly finding my mind drifting. Either falling asleep (despite having slept for well over 8 hours) or just reading black words on a white page, not learning anything. I knew I was under spiritual attack, but was having a very hard time overcoming it. After reading a chapter or two in the Bible, I'd realize I hadn't learned anything, so would pray again for God to direct my mind and thoughts, and protect me from distractions. Yet still, even reading again, I would find my mind wondering. Not to any specific thoughts, just away from Gods Word. By the time I realized this, I'd find that it was already late morning, and I hadn't even started working at all. So, feeling terrible for not having learned anything, and also for not having done any work, I'd turn on my computer, and then start sorting though email, which was also generally a total waste of time -- reading comic strips I'd subscribed to, Slashdot news that doesn't affect me at all, and things like that. Then I'd realize, 'I've got to start working!' So I'd find out what I needed to work on, and want to work on it seriously, doing my best and taking the least amount of time also. But usually by this time (Possibly as late as 2:30) I'd be quite hungry from not eating breakfast or lunch, so I'd have to make a sandwich or something to keep hunger from distracting me. Okay, by then it was possibly as late as 3:00, and I hadn't really even done anything the whole day. So I'd start working on something. But even working, I would waste time by trying to run games in the background, pausing my work timer every half hour or so to check on them and start my characters doing something 'useful' again. Sometimes I'd finish all the work Emmett had given me to do, but not go ask for more, simply because I really wasn't working well, and knew it. Plus, I needed the time to catch up on email and Facebook. And besides, it was usually already after 8:00 by this time, and I wouldn't have time to do anything serious anyway. So I'd piddle around for a while, sometimes working on an email, or perhaps just playing a game, yet being ashamed because Emmett was working the whole time. When he finally did stop, we'd see about some food, and I'd realize I could have (as I did when first coming here) been working on it the whole time I didn't have anything to do. Or at least washing the dishes and cleaning up a bit. After eating, and most likely watching a few episodes of one of the many TV series Emmett has on his computer or DVD, (Perhaps 11:00 at night by now), I wouldn't really want to go to bed, because as soon as I go to bed, another day is gone, completely, and there are going to be all kinds of time wasters the next morning. So I'd stay up, trying to write an email, trying to chat with a friend, or perhaps just playing a game, willing the day to go on. My mind was basically useless for chatting or writing though. Of course, not wanting the day to end resulted in me going to bed very late, and, of course, because of that, getting up later and later each morning. Often, even when I did wake up, I'd try to sleep more rather than starting the day, feeling that my lack of concentration and enthusiasm were largely because of being tired and not getting enough sleep.
The strange thing is that I didn't really realize any of that. I was starting to, but more just realizing that something was wrong, and kindof pointing it all at being tired and homesick. I suppose not realizing it was largely because of not really even thinking. I wasn't unhappy. I was content, and, in general, quite happy. Many great things were happening, and I was enjoying them -- Fun memorable times on both Brendan's birthday and Emmett's birthday, getting to know Brendan a bit better, etc. But despite that, I think I fell more into the category of existing, rather than living. Without thinking, I don't think we really live.
I guess God just knew exactly what I needed though, because going to Liberty has made my mind /SO/ much clearer -- has made me realize all of that, and given me a lot of things to think about, pray about, and learn more about.
The whole trip was somewhat of a surprise actually. I had mentioned it quite some time ago (soon after coming here actually) and nothing more had really been said about it, so I had basically given up hope of seeing Neema before her semester started this time. One day, however, from nowhere as far as I saw it, Emmett just said, "Well, you haven't said anything about it. Are we going to try and go see Neema before her school starts?" And Saturday morning, the very next weekend, we were driving towards Virginia. Our plans were limited to meeting Neema at a specific place on campus, and leaving on Monday. We assumed we'd find some hotel to spend the nights in.
We met Neema, as planned, on Campus, sometime after 4:00. We had hoped to get there before 4:30, but it ended up being closer to 5:00. Obviously, we were both extremely excited! I mean, hey, this is my twin sister, one of the dearest people in the world.
Neema showed us around campus a bit, and then took us to the cafeteria to meet two of my other friends. Apparently they had been waiting for us with Neema from 4:00 for about 45 minutes, but had just left to go eat when we got there.
I think the first thing that really surprised me about the school was just how big it was! They have close to 11,000 students there!! That is /a lot/ of people! The school was /very/ nice also! Of course, we didn't see everything, but anyway.
Since Neema hadn't eaten since breakfast, and we had only eaten one meal also, we decided to just all eat there. It was fairly good... Not anything to get excited about, but not anything to make you sick or anything either. We met our friends there there, and ate with them. As it turned out, that was the only time we saw them.
After eating, Neema showed us the other main buildings on campus, and then we took her to her "dorm".
Apparently, Liberty has a lot more students this year than they have ever had before, so what they did was buy a hotel, and use it's rooms as dorm rooms. There were still empty rooms though, so they are running it as a hotel at the same time, I think mainly for visitors. So, we got to stay there! That was /really/ nice, because it meant Emmett could stay in the room or whatever he wanted without us having to drive somewhere to see Neema. Another of my friends was in the same hotel (which was quite big -- a few hundred rooms I think), as well as many of the other international students. We didn't really do anything at all exciting; I just got to talk to Neema a lot, and I think God really spoke through her and helped me a lot. She helped me realize that what I've been doing is basically just praying that God's would guide me to do whatever he wants me to do, and then waiting for magic to happen. Instead I need to be actively seeking and thinking about what I want to do the rest of my life -- weighing options and praying about each of them. She also greatly encouraged me to be always learning and keeping my mind active. We talked about all kinds of things, but those are two of the things that really stuck with me and I think I needed a lot. Sure, I should have, and I suppose did, know those things already, but I guess I needed reminded. She also thanked me on numerous occasions for all the help that we were. I think that through us, God helped her to go from being scared and hurting, and feeling insignificant and very alone to feeling loved and confident that she will, with God's constant help, be able to not only survive through these years but learn and progress though them. Talking to her, I really think God used us to help her just as much as He used her to help me. HE is so amazing!
Her curfew was at 12:30 for the weekend, so just a little while before that she went to her room.
There were around 300 students, just at this hotel. It was quite neat, seeing and meeting so many students from all over the world. Neema's roommate is from Kenya, so they can speak Swahili together. I think they'll get along very well.
Emmett was in our room watching the Olympics most of this time.
The next day, Sunday, Emmett and I went and ate breakfast in the dining area of the inn since it was included with the meal. Then we watched the Olympics for a while. Around 10:30, as planned, we met with Neema and went to church. She only knew the locations of a couple churches in the area, and decided to try this one first. It was HUGE! Just the choir and band was over 200 people, and they looked very small compared to the rest of the congregation. Despite the fact that the building was enormous, seating I don't know how many thousands of people, it was still packed, leaving many people without seats. Just seeing the two ENORMOUS parking lots, the Liberty University police directing traffic in there, and the ridiculously large building kind of turned me off at first, but it was actually very good, and God really used the service there to help me even more. The song service was wonderful, and the sermon was about much of the same things Neema and I had talked about the night before, including the need for fellow believers to help build us up. One thing that really stood out to me was two Greek words, both translated into the English word "know". One of those words referred specifically to knowledge. The other one, however, referred to more like a progressive knowledge -- a knowing, and constantly learning more. And, of course, we need to have that second kind of knowledge when it comes God. (And a lot of other things, but that's not the point right now). I know that, it just fit very well with all that we'd talked about the night before and helped me make the distinction again.
After church, we wanted to go somewhere to eat. The church caused a major traffic jam in the whole town for a few hours though, despite the roads the church had built to give people more ways in and out, and by the time we had discovered what our options were, all the places we were interested in going to were completely packed with long lines of people. So after driving around for (literally) a couple hours, we just stopped at Kroger and bought something quick with the plans to go somewhere that evening. So, we went back home and Neema and I talked for a few hours. Then we went with Emmett to Cracker Barrel. It was good. When we came back, Neema and I talked till a bit after 10:00. An hour or two of that was with our other friend at that dorm also, and occasionally another student who had some time or who had met Neema before or something.
This morning I got up and said bye before Neema left on the bus bringing students to campus. It runs every 30 minutes. Then I went back to bed until Emmett got up, and then we came home.
The whole trip was /VERY/ refreshing. Mentally, spiritually, physically, and emotionally. I'm very greatful to God for using it to help me so much! These days have definitely been some of the best in my life.
I was getting very lonely, longing for someone to share everything with, someone to help build me up and encourage me in my walk with God. I made a constant effort to pray and read God's word each morning, but was constantly finding my mind drifting. Either falling asleep (despite having slept for well over 8 hours) or just reading black words on a white page, not learning anything. I knew I was under spiritual attack, but was having a very hard time overcoming it. After reading a chapter or two in the Bible, I'd realize I hadn't learned anything, so would pray again for God to direct my mind and thoughts, and protect me from distractions. Yet still, even reading again, I would find my mind wondering. Not to any specific thoughts, just away from Gods Word. By the time I realized this, I'd find that it was already late morning, and I hadn't even started working at all. So, feeling terrible for not having learned anything, and also for not having done any work, I'd turn on my computer, and then start sorting though email, which was also generally a total waste of time -- reading comic strips I'd subscribed to, Slashdot news that doesn't affect me at all, and things like that. Then I'd realize, 'I've got to start working!' So I'd find out what I needed to work on, and want to work on it seriously, doing my best and taking the least amount of time also. But usually by this time (Possibly as late as 2:30) I'd be quite hungry from not eating breakfast or lunch, so I'd have to make a sandwich or something to keep hunger from distracting me. Okay, by then it was possibly as late as 3:00, and I hadn't really even done anything the whole day. So I'd start working on something. But even working, I would waste time by trying to run games in the background, pausing my work timer every half hour or so to check on them and start my characters doing something 'useful' again. Sometimes I'd finish all the work Emmett had given me to do, but not go ask for more, simply because I really wasn't working well, and knew it. Plus, I needed the time to catch up on email and Facebook. And besides, it was usually already after 8:00 by this time, and I wouldn't have time to do anything serious anyway. So I'd piddle around for a while, sometimes working on an email, or perhaps just playing a game, yet being ashamed because Emmett was working the whole time. When he finally did stop, we'd see about some food, and I'd realize I could have (as I did when first coming here) been working on it the whole time I didn't have anything to do. Or at least washing the dishes and cleaning up a bit. After eating, and most likely watching a few episodes of one of the many TV series Emmett has on his computer or DVD, (Perhaps 11:00 at night by now), I wouldn't really want to go to bed, because as soon as I go to bed, another day is gone, completely, and there are going to be all kinds of time wasters the next morning. So I'd stay up, trying to write an email, trying to chat with a friend, or perhaps just playing a game, willing the day to go on. My mind was basically useless for chatting or writing though. Of course, not wanting the day to end resulted in me going to bed very late, and, of course, because of that, getting up later and later each morning. Often, even when I did wake up, I'd try to sleep more rather than starting the day, feeling that my lack of concentration and enthusiasm were largely because of being tired and not getting enough sleep.
The strange thing is that I didn't really realize any of that. I was starting to, but more just realizing that something was wrong, and kindof pointing it all at being tired and homesick. I suppose not realizing it was largely because of not really even thinking. I wasn't unhappy. I was content, and, in general, quite happy. Many great things were happening, and I was enjoying them -- Fun memorable times on both Brendan's birthday and Emmett's birthday, getting to know Brendan a bit better, etc. But despite that, I think I fell more into the category of existing, rather than living. Without thinking, I don't think we really live.
I guess God just knew exactly what I needed though, because going to Liberty has made my mind /SO/ much clearer -- has made me realize all of that, and given me a lot of things to think about, pray about, and learn more about.
The whole trip was somewhat of a surprise actually. I had mentioned it quite some time ago (soon after coming here actually) and nothing more had really been said about it, so I had basically given up hope of seeing Neema before her semester started this time. One day, however, from nowhere as far as I saw it, Emmett just said, "Well, you haven't said anything about it. Are we going to try and go see Neema before her school starts?" And Saturday morning, the very next weekend, we were driving towards Virginia. Our plans were limited to meeting Neema at a specific place on campus, and leaving on Monday. We assumed we'd find some hotel to spend the nights in.
We met Neema, as planned, on Campus, sometime after 4:00. We had hoped to get there before 4:30, but it ended up being closer to 5:00. Obviously, we were both extremely excited! I mean, hey, this is my twin sister, one of the dearest people in the world.
Neema showed us around campus a bit, and then took us to the cafeteria to meet two of my other friends. Apparently they had been waiting for us with Neema from 4:00 for about 45 minutes, but had just left to go eat when we got there.
I think the first thing that really surprised me about the school was just how big it was! They have close to 11,000 students there!! That is /a lot/ of people! The school was /very/ nice also! Of course, we didn't see everything, but anyway.
Since Neema hadn't eaten since breakfast, and we had only eaten one meal also, we decided to just all eat there. It was fairly good... Not anything to get excited about, but not anything to make you sick or anything either. We met our friends there there, and ate with them. As it turned out, that was the only time we saw them.
After eating, Neema showed us the other main buildings on campus, and then we took her to her "dorm".
Apparently, Liberty has a lot more students this year than they have ever had before, so what they did was buy a hotel, and use it's rooms as dorm rooms. There were still empty rooms though, so they are running it as a hotel at the same time, I think mainly for visitors. So, we got to stay there! That was /really/ nice, because it meant Emmett could stay in the room or whatever he wanted without us having to drive somewhere to see Neema. Another of my friends was in the same hotel (which was quite big -- a few hundred rooms I think), as well as many of the other international students. We didn't really do anything at all exciting; I just got to talk to Neema a lot, and I think God really spoke through her and helped me a lot. She helped me realize that what I've been doing is basically just praying that God's would guide me to do whatever he wants me to do, and then waiting for magic to happen. Instead I need to be actively seeking and thinking about what I want to do the rest of my life -- weighing options and praying about each of them. She also greatly encouraged me to be always learning and keeping my mind active. We talked about all kinds of things, but those are two of the things that really stuck with me and I think I needed a lot. Sure, I should have, and I suppose did, know those things already, but I guess I needed reminded. She also thanked me on numerous occasions for all the help that we were. I think that through us, God helped her to go from being scared and hurting, and feeling insignificant and very alone to feeling loved and confident that she will, with God's constant help, be able to not only survive through these years but learn and progress though them. Talking to her, I really think God used us to help her just as much as He used her to help me. HE is so amazing!
Her curfew was at 12:30 for the weekend, so just a little while before that she went to her room.
There were around 300 students, just at this hotel. It was quite neat, seeing and meeting so many students from all over the world. Neema's roommate is from Kenya, so they can speak Swahili together. I think they'll get along very well.
Emmett was in our room watching the Olympics most of this time.
The next day, Sunday, Emmett and I went and ate breakfast in the dining area of the inn since it was included with the meal. Then we watched the Olympics for a while. Around 10:30, as planned, we met with Neema and went to church. She only knew the locations of a couple churches in the area, and decided to try this one first. It was HUGE! Just the choir and band was over 200 people, and they looked very small compared to the rest of the congregation. Despite the fact that the building was enormous, seating I don't know how many thousands of people, it was still packed, leaving many people without seats. Just seeing the two ENORMOUS parking lots, the Liberty University police directing traffic in there, and the ridiculously large building kind of turned me off at first, but it was actually very good, and God really used the service there to help me even more. The song service was wonderful, and the sermon was about much of the same things Neema and I had talked about the night before, including the need for fellow believers to help build us up. One thing that really stood out to me was two Greek words, both translated into the English word "know". One of those words referred specifically to knowledge. The other one, however, referred to more like a progressive knowledge -- a knowing, and constantly learning more. And, of course, we need to have that second kind of knowledge when it comes God. (And a lot of other things, but that's not the point right now). I know that, it just fit very well with all that we'd talked about the night before and helped me make the distinction again.
After church, we wanted to go somewhere to eat. The church caused a major traffic jam in the whole town for a few hours though, despite the roads the church had built to give people more ways in and out, and by the time we had discovered what our options were, all the places we were interested in going to were completely packed with long lines of people. So after driving around for (literally) a couple hours, we just stopped at Kroger and bought something quick with the plans to go somewhere that evening. So, we went back home and Neema and I talked for a few hours. Then we went with Emmett to Cracker Barrel. It was good. When we came back, Neema and I talked till a bit after 10:00. An hour or two of that was with our other friend at that dorm also, and occasionally another student who had some time or who had met Neema before or something.
This morning I got up and said bye before Neema left on the bus bringing students to campus. It runs every 30 minutes. Then I went back to bed until Emmett got up, and then we came home.
The whole trip was /VERY/ refreshing. Mentally, spiritually, physically, and emotionally. I'm very greatful to God for using it to help me so much! These days have definitely been some of the best in my life.
2008-08-11
What's the point?
So, what's the point in having a blog that I never write in? I have no idea. I guess just so that if/when I ever do feel like writing in it, I can. Sorry it's boring to any readers. Right now I'm so far behind on email and Facebook messages that if I ever feel like writing something, I work on those, not this thing.
Sorry. Life goes on though, and it's been quite interesting and even very enjoyable much, or even most of the time. Last night I missed Edith and Brian so much I couldn't even write emails. I find myself wishing, as I think Lauren does, that I at least knew some somewhat definite time that I would see them again, and that that would help me so much in the mean time. But not knowing if you'll ever see some of the dearest people to you in the world while on Earth is hard.
I tend to just go along with whatever comes my way, not much affected by any of it. Sad things happen, it doesn't get me down. Happy things happen, I don't get that excited. But this is a big thing. Perhaps I make a bigger deal of my own life than I should? I don't know.
...anyway, I dunno what that's for. To sort out a few thoughts? Maybe. Or maybe just because I remembered that I have a blog and felt like I should write in it. Problem is, it seems like I often write in this when I'm confused, so that's all my readers get. Oh well.
Sorry. Life goes on though, and it's been quite interesting and even very enjoyable much, or even most of the time. Last night I missed Edith and Brian so much I couldn't even write emails. I find myself wishing, as I think Lauren does, that I at least knew some somewhat definite time that I would see them again, and that that would help me so much in the mean time. But not knowing if you'll ever see some of the dearest people to you in the world while on Earth is hard.
I tend to just go along with whatever comes my way, not much affected by any of it. Sad things happen, it doesn't get me down. Happy things happen, I don't get that excited. But this is a big thing. Perhaps I make a bigger deal of my own life than I should? I don't know.
...anyway, I dunno what that's for. To sort out a few thoughts? Maybe. Or maybe just because I remembered that I have a blog and felt like I should write in it. Problem is, it seems like I often write in this when I'm confused, so that's all my readers get. Oh well.
2008-08-01
Skillet - Those Nights
This song is very special to me because it reminds me of so many nights I stayed up talking with Brian, Ma, Pa, Neema, and occasionally others. Those nights really are what kept me going.
I remember when we used to laugh about nothing at all
It was better than going mad
From trying to solve all the problems we're going through
Forget 'em all
Cause on those nights we would stand and never fall
Together we faced it all
Remember when we'd
Stay up late and we'd talk all night
In the dark room lit by the TV light
Through all the hard times in my life
Those nights kept me alive
We'd listen to the radio play all night
Didn't want to go home to another fight
Through all the hard times in my life
Those nights kept me alive
I remember when we used to drive anywhere but here
As long as we'd forget our lives
We were so young and confused
That we didn't know to laugh or cry
Those nights were ours
They will live and never die
Together we'd stand forever
Remember when we'd
Stay up late and we'd talk all night
In the dark room lit by the TV light
Through all the hard times in my life
Those nights kept me alive
We'd listen to the radio play all night
Didn't want to go home to another fight
Through all the hard times in my life
Those night kept me alive
Those nights belong to us
There's nothing wrong with us
Those nights belong to us
I remember when we used to laugh
And now i wish those nights would last
Stay up late and we'd talk all night
In the dark room lit by the TV light
Through all the hard times in my life
Those nights kept me alive
We'd listen to the radio play all night
Didn't want to go home to another fight
Through all the hard times in my life
Those night kept me alive
Stay up late and we'd talk all night
In the dark room lit by the TV light
Through all the hard times in my life
Those nights kept me alive
We'd listen to the radio play all night
Didn't want to go home to another fight
Through all the hard times in my life
Those night kept me alive
Those nights belong to us
There's nothing wrong
I remember when we used to laugh about nothing at all
It was better than going mad
From trying to solve all the problems we're going through
Forget 'em all
Cause on those nights we would stand and never fall
Together we faced it all
Remember when we'd
Stay up late and we'd talk all night
In the dark room lit by the TV light
Through all the hard times in my life
Those nights kept me alive
We'd listen to the radio play all night
Didn't want to go home to another fight
Through all the hard times in my life
Those nights kept me alive
I remember when we used to drive anywhere but here
As long as we'd forget our lives
We were so young and confused
That we didn't know to laugh or cry
Those nights were ours
They will live and never die
Together we'd stand forever
Remember when we'd
Stay up late and we'd talk all night
In the dark room lit by the TV light
Through all the hard times in my life
Those nights kept me alive
We'd listen to the radio play all night
Didn't want to go home to another fight
Through all the hard times in my life
Those night kept me alive
Those nights belong to us
There's nothing wrong with us
Those nights belong to us
I remember when we used to laugh
And now i wish those nights would last
Stay up late and we'd talk all night
In the dark room lit by the TV light
Through all the hard times in my life
Those nights kept me alive
We'd listen to the radio play all night
Didn't want to go home to another fight
Through all the hard times in my life
Those night kept me alive
Stay up late and we'd talk all night
In the dark room lit by the TV light
Through all the hard times in my life
Those nights kept me alive
We'd listen to the radio play all night
Didn't want to go home to another fight
Through all the hard times in my life
Those night kept me alive
Those nights belong to us
There's nothing wrong
2008-07-24
More News
My order just came today! Three CDs. VNV Nation - Judgment, Assemblage 23 - Meta, and Skillet - Comatose! Yay!
Have been, and am, very busy, and will be going to a family reunion tomorrow. I think I'll be back Sunday evening, but I'm not really sure. Maybe Monday? I'll miss you guys!
Have been, and am, very busy, and will be going to a family reunion tomorrow. I think I'll be back Sunday evening, but I'm not really sure. Maybe Monday? I'll miss you guys!
2008-07-21
Update
News: I now have a bike, and will probably ride it almost every day.
Other news: I'm doing fine. Strange thoughts coming to my mind every now and then, but it seems to have calmed down, and I'm simply fine - doing well. Dunno what else to write though. I'm not feeling extremely creative, and what creativity there is, I need to use for writing an email or writing emails.
Other news: I'm doing fine. Strange thoughts coming to my mind every now and then, but it seems to have calmed down, and I'm simply fine - doing well. Dunno what else to write though. I'm not feeling extremely creative, and what creativity there is, I need to use for writing an email or writing emails.
2008-07-16
Late night fun.
I don't know what this says about me, (feel free to comment) but I think it's absolutely hilarious! ...Brian, Daryl, and I did some really funny song Brian wrote in school one time for the end-of-term celebration. This reminds me of it. I guess that's just a part of who I am. --A part that likes very silly songs.
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